Save Me I Beg Of You

Save me from this awful place. Just take me away. I can't stand it any more. Save me before this hungry world swallows me whole. I don't want the pain any more. I'm sick of heartbreak, anger insanity and depression. Take me to a happy place. A place were goth/emo boys and girls can live some what happily with the regulars. Not get a weird look every were you go. I know that we are used to the looks and having people being scared of us is fun, I know that but wouldn't it be nice just to be excped for who we are and to not always be the person that someone suspects of doing somthing wrong. Not all of us are bad people, why can't the regulars open their fucken eyes and realize that. That would make life a whole lot simpler, eaiser and a little bit better. But we all know that, that day will never come. We will never be excepted. We shall always be outcast from the world. Everyone else will always hate us. But frankly right now i'm fine with that.

Why can't I???

Just yesterday I was prepared to die. Honestly I would like to die, I would like to get rid of all the pain. Oh I might just try. All my suicide attempts have failed, i've taken pill after pill after pill, that didn't work. I've slit my arms open upto my sholders to try and bleed to death, i've tried to drownd myself that didn't work either. Why can't I fucken die. Mabey I'll just jab somthing sharp and metal into my head just to end it all, but with my luck that won't work. I want to die. I want to end the pain. I just want my struggle with insanity to just fucken end already. I'm so twisted and fucked up. Why won't death consume me already!!!. Do I have to jump off a fricken 20 story building. Why can't I just die. Why........can't........I.......just........die.......

The Truth

I hate reality, it is a painful, soul sucking dark place. I choose not to face it at all. Every day I pretend I don't notice the things going on around me. I choose to let my mind wander, I let it go to a happier place, well you know more or less happy. This is a terrible world we live in. Everyone lives a lie. There is no truth any more every thing is a lie. Trust no one. I've gone as far as barley even trusting myself. Listen to me, what I say is real. Weither or not you choose to belive me deep down inside you know that what I say is real.

Wish me luck with insanity

Wish me luck with insanity. I'm going to counceling on the 8th. I can't stand shrinks. They pretend to be your friends, then gossip about you to every body. Then you go to the hospital and are treated like a lab rat. ARRRG!!!!!! I can't stand it. Wish me luck and hope i dont attack anybody.

Our hevanly father

Our hevanly father. He protects us, keeps us safe. He is riseing. Be prepared to meet our father.

We are to stick together

We are alone in this world. Nobody understands us. Just because we are Goth\Emo dosent mean that THEY can take away our rights and privleges. They will judge you by the way you look. The way you talk, dress and every thing else about you just because you arent like THEM. Do not let that bring you down. Us Goth\Emo's have got to stick together. We are family. We are all children of the Devil.

My Thanks

I have become aware that people from all over the U.S., Russia and Germany have been veiwing and reading my blog. I thank you all very much. Thank you for joing and noticeing the DARKNESS.

This is America?

If I asked u to jump off a bridge would u the awnser today would be how high is the bridge? This is America they say a home for people who want freedom. Do they think this is freedom?!?! The government has brain washed us so much they've practicall made us all Idiots. America is so dumb now we don't even know we're being scammed and con Ed out of our daily lives. Think about it the gov constantly watches you. Steals your information. think about it really. Come to America we will take away your privacy and make you unbelievably dumb you'll do any thing we tell you to. ENJoY life while we watch you.

My mother

My mother who looked upon my emo face and cried because she cOuld look no longer. My mother Who is a tattered soul in every way. My mother Who shall always be there even though my daddy Ryan might not be. My mother whoeans every thing to me. My mother who says she has every right to judge me. My mother my one true friend. My mother the one who sins. My mommy and daddy we at one big happy emo white zacan family. My mother my super epic mother gennie

Join us

I am a fallen soul. Death consumes me. It gave me insanity. I am scared. Are you. You should be. Darkness has taken over me. It has attacked the ones I love and taken them from me. But I do not hate the darkness. Really I. Actually love it. It can take Anything from me I will still worship it. People can die and I will not live the lie that every body else dose saying they miss you every min of every day. They don't. You should listen to me my fellow readers do not grieve and live the rest of your life a lie because somethUing devastating has happened. Your world is not ending fit is just the beginng. Join the darkness it welcomes you. You can't trust your family. You can only trust your friends. Be joyous over death. Now I say as I stand join the darkness